Dealing with Depression and Anxiety | April 22, 2019

I haven't updated my blog in a while and I have a few reasons why. The couple reasons why is because the least important one is I've been planning out my future as I finish my digital photography class. But the really most important one that's been affecting me the most is my social anxiety and depression. These days my life has been pretty much sad. My mental health and well-being is comparable to someone bring physically sick if that makes sense. I did however get an appointment for me to meet with a therapist for therapy and help with my issues. I've been dealing with Social Anxiety Disorder and Depression and it has hurt my college life a lot. Which is, taking less classes than expected, missing attendance, falling grades, and not being able to get a job and taking care of myself. The feelings I get is pretty much my heart races and my chest tightens when I do go to college and meet people for anxiety. My depression makes me feel sad in a way I feel like I'm pointless, my life sucks, and I got nothing to live for. But it's not to the brink of me trying to kill myself multiple times. Once I do meet up with a therapist multiple times, I will update again to see how my well-being is and how I am mentally.

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